Keeping Tabs

NIKI(니키)

Lose it

Ah-ah

 

You left without sayin' goodbye (Fuck, fuck, fuck)

Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

I ball a fist and die inside

I wish I didn't, but regrettably

I entirely understand why you did it

Take one step forward and two jumps back

One hand on the gate of this cul-de-sac

Some crushed part of me wants to be cornered

Right into it even if we crack

 

You left early and you arrived too late

Just right in time to be a huge mistake

So, I wish you well, and I wish you far away

This was never real, I'll say it 'til I believe it

 

I wish I never met you

You are the worst thing that

I'm still keepin' tabs on for some stupid reason

You were just being nice

Now, I finally believe you're out

There somewhere also keepin' tabs on how I might be feelin'

 

For some stupid reason

I keep on believin'

You care and you're real until

I don't even know you

 

Drownin' in my own

Sad, imagined fantasy of who you could be

The reality is you

Unironically love personality tests

All of the data speak out from using it best

But it can never work 'cause I'm an Enneatype four Aquarius

 

You say the wrong thing every time you talk

The red flags wave, the alarms sound off

I'm so glad our paths didn't cross

I'm so glad, I'll say it 'til I believe it

 

I wish I never met you

You are the worst thing that

I'm still keepin' tabs on for some stupid reason

You're the same with everyone

I'm not special, no

You're not out there

Just keepin' tabs on how I might be feelin'

 

It's all just imagined

I keep on believin'

You care and you miss me, too

I need to get over you

 

Over, I need to get over you (Yeah)