Three winters ago

Heggy

Three winters ago

I said too much, and you said nothin’, you let go

You took a cab,

I watched the lights fade under the snow

You’re in your life, I’m in my head

It all moved slow

You play the part they expect of you,

say less but still glow

And I lit a spark just to see it fade

That’s just the weight I hold

I cut things off too cold

You know I spin the room till it’s blurry

I miss you, don’t worry

 

Four months from today

We’ll talk in passing, just two lines and no delay

You’ll be on land, I’ll be at sea

Same moon, new way

And I’ll fake a laugh

Quietly scroll while the plane lifts off

and my drink slips in my lap

I might not feel clear, but I’ll adapt, mh

That’s just the weight I hold

I test my grip, then fold

Grateful you don’t show up just to warn me

I miss you, don’t worry

 

You were the calm, you were the fight

As strange as it feels, I miss the nights

I was a mess, it stayed in my chest

A song I forget, but not quite

I tend to joke when I should cry

I stare at the blur like that’s the sign

Making things right just ain’t precise

I try again, try again

 

That’s just the weight I hold

Speeding through streets I swore I’d leave closed

I miss you, don’t worry

 

That’s just the weight I hold

You were the calm, you were the fight

As strange as it feels, I miss the nights

(I want to speak in smoke)

I was a mess, it stayed in my chest

A song I forget, but not quite

Hope I don’t turn this all into stories

I tend to joke when I should cry

It clears my mind

( my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind )

I miss you, don’t worry