Jamaica

Ineffa Lucas

Call me crazy

But I’m up for an all in

Bet you never seen a killer angel

Disguised in red

Like the stories unfolding

But her heart is black

Like the sand on a rainy day

Taken over by a panic attack

Quick turnover

I’ll get the job done

To the max

Too fast

Escaping impossible

A glimpse of us

An intense face off invisible

A touch of an angel

Impact way too ineffable

Strike me once

And strike me twice

Already a shot to the chest

Now past the point of pain

Numb and outnumbered

I took a pill to see the world clear

I’m falling stubborn

We saw the future swinging by in a flash

The beauty up for imaginations

Took my life for granted

I see through

Snap back to reality

I got no cure to the poison

My pellets gone empty

My mind blank

Pinhole vision headed straight for the price tag

My soul in her sight

It’s been a beautiful ride oh baby

Stop playing

I stepped out

Now play the part

Stakes too high

She said she from Jamaica

From the start

I knew I couldn’t take her

I shoot the shot

That nobody could make

Shit’s too easy to tell

She looked too busy

Taking chance after chance

Her bottle full to the rim

I couldn’t bother to chase

Tho something killed me within

If I had dared to try

I wouldn’t make it alive

Say no more

I guessed correct the first time

Showed no mercy

I passed it to the next line

Stooped too low

I ran it was the last time

I shot for the moon

She was a star that couldn’t stop shining

I tried to keep it going

Tried to keep it calm

I couldn’t stop adoring

Pieces to pieces

Cutting my soul to pieces

Shit’s too foreign

Pressed the button

Ran to the panic room

To catch a breath

Her scent following

Not too behind

No chance to catch a minute

Faster baby faster

Beating crazy

Got no shoulder

Imagine tryna catch my sanity

With eyes on my back

Seeing the devil tryna capture me

My brothers and my enemies

With her pointing a shot too clean

Point blank

I feel the tension rising

Emphasising failure at its ugliest point

Where did it go all wrong

Lost track

Of all the beauty and the memories

Said I’d take the bullet

Saw that it was headed straight to me

Oh jesus

I must’ve been an ugly crier

The tears didn’t mean a single thing

For her cold heart

The pieces I was torn into

Unfixable by love or fire

Take me as I am

Before I aim for my neck or higher

Step off I’ll take off

And leave you behind

Wrote a note declaring war

You killed me inside

You truly were the devil in disguise

Embarrassed I shoot for the neck up

In Paris I’ll die

Mistaken for the romance you implied

Shaken still

I hope you feel the hurt as you realise

Stop playing

I stepped out

Now play the part

Stakes too high

She said she from Jamaica

From the start

I knew I couldn’t take her

I shoot the shot

That nobody could make

Shit’s too easy to tell

She looked too busy

Taking chance after chance

Her bottle full to the rim

I couldn’t bother to chase

Tho something killed me within

Her I had glorified

I didn’t make it alive

Say no more

I guessed correct the first time

Showed no mercy

I passed it to the next line

Stooped too low

I ran it was the last time

I shot for the neck up

I saw them glisten and shine

Lacked responsibility

I passed the pain

Onto the next line

I panicked in lost time

I pasted the outcome

For the future to reapply

I gave as she wished

I played my role

Sacrificed the part of me

Importantly I lost entirety of our lives

No future to carry through

The hurt where the sorrow lies