This Is How It Is

After Thoughts

I’ve got a stupid question,

I’ll probably never ask,

but I do wonder

 

Do you dream about me?

Me, I suck at sleeping

all those ‘ifs’ and ‘maybes’ come and go

and you always run the show

 

Oh I guess you’re my only proper lover,

the single reference and the muse.

I say that’s why

 

Oh we’ve been on and off

so with my pride aside

it’s time that we say we tried

 

I hope you find the peace that I never gave you

I hope you get a hold of the one that will hold you

 

And God knows I might ache a while

but we said goodbye

so this is how it is

 

Oh lately I’ve been wasting all my Saturdays

in hopes that all the wine would wash you off my brain

 

But you know I would never flirt with strangers

so I’m always on my own

bummed in my ride

 

Oh you’d be haunting me

All throughout my ride

but this is all I’m gon’ say:

 

I hope you find the peace that I never gave you

I hope you get a hold of the one that will hold you

 

And God knows I might ache a while

but we said goodbye

so this is how it is

 

Do I, do I, do I, do I

still mess with your head?

 

Do I, do I, do I, do I

still mess with your head?

 

Maybe I was way too fast

maybe I was way too brash

naming you ‘my past’

threw it all away

 

Lately I’ve been losing track

but I know I’ll bounce right back

why go mess up the bed we made

 

I’ve lost my mind

can’t tell what’s right

 

But I loved you

and you loved me

and I’d love to keep that whole

I’ll let you go

 

I hope you find the peace that I never gave you

I hope you get a hold of the one that will hold you

 

And God knows I might ache a while

but we said goodbye

so this is how it is

 

Do I, do I, do I, do I

still mess with your head?

 

Do I, do I, do I, do I

still mess with your head?

 

It’s sad I said that

I hate I said that

But that’s where we’re at

 

It’s sad I said that

I hate I said that

But that’s where I’m at