Scared of Myself

Alexander Stewart

[Intro]

(You're not good enough, life's not fair)

(If you die, no one would care)

 

[Verse 1]

When I was thirteen

I started gaining weight

So I started counting calories sometimes

When I was sixteen

Someone told me I was stupid

So I bit my tongue, let others speak their minds

 

[Pre-Chorus]

Now I hear voices late at night

And, honestly, I'm terrified

That I'm never gonna be the same

Some people are scared of heights

And monsters coming out at night

But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change

 

[Chorus]

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well

I'm afraid for my life

I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help

My thoughts go, "You're not good enough, life's not fair

If you die, no one would care"

Oh, I've lost control

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well

I'm not doing well

 

When I was nineteen

Someone stole my innocence

And the first thing that I did was blame myself

Now in my twenties

And I still feel like a kid

Tryna work through all that shit, but, God, it's heavy

 

[Pre-Chorus]

Now I hear voices late at night

And, honestly, I'm terrified

That I'm never gonna be the same (Same)

Some people are scared of heights

And monsters coming out at night

But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change

 

[Chorus]

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well

I'm afraid for my life

I'm at war with my mind, and nobody can help

My thoughts go, "You're not good enough, life's not fair

If you die, no one would care"

Oh, I've lost control

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth, I'm not doing well

I'm not doing well

 

 

[Outro]

(You're not good enough, life's not fair)

(If you die, no one would care)

(Oh, I've lost control)