Magic or Medicine

Hope Tala

Sometimes I think I need a doctor

'Cause I've been down

A pill for pain, or maybe something softer

To straighten me out

I'm looking at the peace I'm tryna foster

And I have my doubts

'Cause I tried to find myself, and then I lost her

So now I'm unfound

But I've been working through my feelings

I'm staying calm, tryna regulate my breathing

'Fore it's over, learn composure, start to think before I speak, and

Evaluate the company I'm keeping

And I've been wading through the water

Remember when I talk to myself I'm somebody's daughter

Sister, someone's lover, and so many peoples' friend

Yeah, I've been tryna make amends

'Cause I've been up at night more than I've ever been

And I've been feeling right, but then it's straight back to hell again

I've been putting up a fight

Thought it would get better then

Pretty sure I need a cure

But don't know if it's magic or medicine

Sometimes I think I need religion

I've lost my faith

In everything

I'm looking for some wisdom

So I can find my way

Yeah, I've been feeling insecure

'Cause I've got plenty, but I'm stuck here wanting more

For more

Still looking for more

(Battling my mind) and calling it a war